Comp's Chance

“Yeah?” I ask, turning back to her.

“I hope you know what you mean to this club. We all love you and Paisley so much. Just…” she stops, and I wait for her to continue. She takes a deep breath before doing so. “I wish someone would have been able to convince me sooner that Hitter loved me and how much I meant to him. I didn’t feel like I deserved his love with everything my family put this club through, and sometimes I can feel you struggling with that as well.”

I swear, this woman may be blind, but she sees more than anyone I’ve ever met. Sometimes, I wonder if she is a witch. The good kind, of course.

“Nix is really into you. Please don’t hurt him because the demons from your past are telling you what you should and shouldn’t do. Those demons are there to put doubt in your mind, to make you feel worthless. It’s their one job, and your job is to overcome them. Don’t let them get to you. Don’t let them take away your happiness. That’s what they fight to do, but you fight harder because this life is too short to spend it being controlled.”

After that, she turns and continues into the kitchen while I just stand here and stare at her retreating form. I half expected Izzy to warn me of hurting Nix, like Halle did. I should haverealized Izzy has her own tactics. While Halle runs more toward violence, Izzy runs more toward love, and I take it to heart. I finally shake myself free and start making my way back to Nix’s room.

Does he really feel more for me than this attraction? I know for a fact I fell for him a while ago. Hell, probably the minute he eased my daughter’s fears when we arrived. I’ve been holding back because I wasn’t sure what he wanted from me. He has said nothing, and hell, he pulls away from me at every damn turn. He’s been so hot and cold. One minute he’s all over me, and the next, it’s like we’re just acquaintances again.

Then I think over Izzy’s words again. If he feels the same way I do, maybe there’s another reason he’s holding back. I walk down the remaining hall with a new determination in my blood. I’m going to get Nix to fuck me, and he’s going to let go of his control this time. It’s time, past time, and I’m going to make damn sure of it. I smile as I push his door open and see him messing with something on his computer, but he has Paisley set up right beside him at his desk, where she’s humming and coloring.

“You guys hungry?” I ask them. They both turn around at the same time, and I want to laugh at the matching expressions and movements, but I head over to the small table Nix has set up in the corner.

“This looks amazing, sunshine. Thank you,” Nix says, helping Paisley over to what has become her usual seat at the table, and I watch them dig in, barely coming up for a breath. I swear the similarities between the two are astounding. I want to laugh as they shovel the food down. Nix finally looks up and notices me watching.

“Where’s your food, Sunshine?” he asks.

“I ate a little bit ago. I’m fine, promise,” I say, smiling at him.

“What were you guys working on?” I ask them. Before Nix can answer, Paisley jumps up and runs to the desk. I look at Nix in confusion, but all I see is the evil smirk on his face, and I know he’s probably fucking with Jason. He already told me about sending a box of BDSM toys and purple dildos to his office. He subscribed to over a hundred random magazines in Jason’s name, from women’s clothing lines to “Sexy enlarged Grandpas.” I wanted to scold him, but it’s too funny. Plus, it feels good to know Jason’s life isn’t the perfectly put-together show he likes to portray. Paisley rushes back over and puts a picture on the table between us.

“I made this for you, Comp. I hope you like it,” Paisley says, setting the picture down. I look at it and see a grassy lawn with green hills. One lonely sunflower is sticking up out of the ground, and the bright yellow sun is shining down straight on top of it.

“Oh wildflower, you drew this? It’s amazing!” Nix says, smiling brightly and picking up the piece of paper.

“It’s me and mommy. It’s for you, to make sure you never forget us when we have to leave. The flower is me cuz you call me wildflower, and because you call mommy sunshine, I had her shining down on me,” Paisley says. I watch Nix’s face soften before he looks her dead in the eyes.

“Baby girl, you and your mama ain’t going nowhere,” he tells her before turning to me, “Unless I’m riding shotgun.”

The look in his eyes is a challenge, daring me to argue. He thinks I’m going to fight and push him away. Oh, how wrong he is. I give him a flirty smirk and wink at him. I probably look like a complete idiot, but I couldn’t give two shits at the moment. I want him to know what to expect tonight because the minute Paisley is asleep for the night, I’m coming for him… hopefully in more ways than one.

Nineteen

COMP

The minute I saw the look in Sunny’s eyes, I knew she was mine. I will claim her over and over tonight until I either get her ass knocked up or figure out a better way to leave my mark. I hold on to the picture Paisley drew before getting up and setting it on my desk. I know exactly what I’m going to do with it, and I hope they both love it.

“I’m going to put Paisley down for the night. She’s staying with Rome and Rae tomorrow, so I want to make sure she’s rested. Is it okay if I come back after? I’d like to talk for a bit,” she asks, tilting her head coyly. I smile before nodding.

“Yeah, Sunshine. Never even have to ask,” I tell her, knowing there won’t be any talking going on, not if I can fucking help it. I take one more look at my computer, chuckling at the newest project I’ve been working on. I may or may not have sent Jason’s current woman pictures of him with other women, all real, of course. I also may or may not have sent her photoshopped pictures of Jason fucking her brother, dad, and uncle. All in a day’s work.

I minimize the screen when I hear Sunny come back into the room. I turn and see the look on her face. I don’t stop to think. I jump out of my seat and prowl toward her. I growl when I seeher perfect little nipples rise up against her shirt. Fuck, I need my mouth on her now. I don’t stop walking until I’m toe to toe with her. I expect her to back away; I know I look uncontrolled. That’s exactly how I feel… but of course, my Sunshine stands her ground, and when I stop barely an inch from her, she gets up on her tiptoes and leans into my lips.

She kisses me, not a soft kiss either. This kiss is explosive. I moan into her mouth before sliding my hands down her body, needing her in my arms. I need it now. I bend until my hands are on the back of her thighs, pull her up until her legs wrap around my hips, and stumble forward until she’s against the wall.

I realize now she must have changed from her jeans and t-shirt into her sleep clothes while she was gone. Now she’s in an oversized t-shirt that goes to her knees, and I’m not entirely sure if she’s wearing shorts or not, but I’m determined to find out. I place my hand on her knee, gripping it tight before sliding my hand up the outside of her thigh. Sunny moans and wiggles against me. It’s hell on my dick, but I’ll take this pain and bask in it. I finally slide my hand to the top of her thighs and find the surprise of a lifetime when I do. I pull back from her and raise a brow.

“No panties?” I ask with a soft chuckle. “Bad girl,” I tell her, gripping her ass hard. There is no doubt in my mind my handprint will be on her ass tomorrow.

That brings some sense back to me, though. I step back from the wall, letting her slide down my body, groaning, and then taking a deep breath when I place her in front of me. I can’t fully let go with her. I have to control myself, or I’ll scare her away. My specific taste in sex scares some women away.

I don’t hold that against them. I understand completely, but I like what I like. I don’t think Sunny would like it too much, so I’m doing every fucking thing possible to rein it in. She steps up to me, lifting her shirt over her head. Standing before me,completely naked, I can’t stop the roar that leaves me at seeing her like this. I drop my chin to my chest, placing my hands on my hips and breathing deeply. I’m about to fucking lose all control.

“I know you’re holding back from me. I can feel it. Don’t hide from me. Just let go,” Sunny says, stepping up to me again and placing hot little kisses and nips on the scarred side of my face, shoulder, and neck. Fuck, fuck, fuck.

“No, I can’t lose control. I can’t lose you,” I tell her determinedly.